Just Think About It

High end cars, money, naked girls, drunk guys, intentional  PDA post, the #goals photo…

My brain is about to hit the snooze button as I lie in bed. All comfy and cozy in my sheets, with the fan on to create a cooler environment. But wait! I need to scroll through Instagram… because it’s out of habitual habit. Catch my drift?

As I am scrolling through the popular page on Instagram, that’s all I see. High end cars while awkwardly sitting in the front seat looking “wealthy AF.. right? That’s how you use AF, or that’s why the kids are saying these days.

Any who… Stacks on stacks because it’s payday so of course you need to brag. Naked girls, well girls in bikinis that shouldn’t even pass as fabric, drunk guys on spring break making regretful decisions, straddling couple because it’s cute and they’re “in love” and oh yeah below in the comments everyone says #goals.

As Jesus says, for what our heart breaks over, His breaks more.

I look at these photos, these provocative, sexual, soft porn, selfish, me me me, boasting, shallow photos of what people live and become so jealous for, my heart breaks! In other words, #goals.


I am serious when I say it. My heart breaks so much for this world. For where we are at, emotionally, spiturually and mentally. We have become such shallow, selfish humans and it completely and utterly breaks me.

This life is hell on earth for some and I couldn’t agree more. We rely so much on how many likes we get on a photo, I know you’ve heard this before but it’s true!! We rely so much on how to get the perfect angle, light, whatever it is. IT’S SHALLOW. We need to create this “look at me” lifestyle and it’s so sad. It’s sad that this is what majority of us worry about on a day to day basis. When there are actual life threatening issues going on in this world. And by world, I mean outside of the United States.

We have it SO well, almost too well because each day I bet some of us take it totally for granted, since it’s almost as if we deserve it because we live in such a country of high accessibility and opporunity.

Personally, it’s hard to do life sometimes because of the people I run into, see across at the coffee shop or just overhear while taking my daily walks. It just blows my mind of the problems that people worry over. I am not saying your problems are less than, at all. I am just simply saying, instead of sweating the materialistic stuff that will only benefit you and you only, may sweat over the massive stuff that can effect, your future, and your children’s future, yah? The time is now to figure out how the future will end up and I cannot imagine how much more selfish someone can get and how much more powerful the internet will be.

Stop getting angry at the government or the president for how shitty the world is… we the people of this country have free will. We have choices and if it’s going to be selfish from here on out, then… we are done for. However, if we decide to sweat over something that can effect your tomorrow, maybe some hearts will start to change and materialistic things will just become things. Maybe then, they will not have such a massive control on our daily lives anymore.

Get over the comparison game. Does that help you in any way? Does that benefit you in any way?

I am going to guess no and no.

SO WHY KEEP IT UP? Because that’s what the world says to do. Obsess over celebrities that are JUST LIKE US, they just so happen to have access to show off their talent in more ways than others. Or how about going crazy over what life that person has and how yours sucks. You have a roof? You have a food? You have clothes? You have clean water for showering and doing the dishes? You are living like a king or queen my friend!

I can imagine just a wee bit of what could happen if we put all the energy that we do through obsessing over social media and having the best of whatever or getting famous, into something that truly matters.

Politics, helping the hungry, going overseas and helping at orphanges or people you may know that are the less fortunate. How about including that person who is always left out or even putting down that phone and actually conversing with that person whom you asked to hang out with. Allowing common sense to become common sense, again. Just think where our world would be? I am not saying world peace but I am saying we could be more on the positive scale rather than the negative, envious, selfish, entitiled scale.

Just think about it.



Time Is Now!

The time is NOW!! You know, carpe diem. YOLO. You know all the “life is short” mottos. To be honest, they’re cheesy. They are cheesy because they are true.

The time is now my friend, to use your time wisely of whatever season you are in. Specifically speaking if you’re in a very quiet and slow season take advantage of that time and use it!

Travel, see the world, do something you wouldn’t normally do. Netflix and chill can happen anytime, seeing the world is not always available.

The time is now to stop vicariously living through others blogs, Instagram stories or Snapchats but to buy that plane ticket and adventure. Instead of wishing to be at that place, MAKE. IT HAPPEN. You’re young once, you only have so many quiet seasons in your life, so why waste it with doing what you usually would be doing when you’re busy.

Bar’s are so last week.

The time is now my friend to get out of the safe zone and do something that scares you. Do something that makes you feel alive and not trapped in that every day routine. You will never regret travelling.

The time is now to explore my friend. Explore a bit on your own; learn how to survive on your own. Learn how to step away from technology and take advantage of this beautiful world we live in, called earth by looking up and not down on that stupid piece of technology that corrupts our daily lives. No more pinterest, no more google, no more wishing. If you want it bad enough, it can happen! You’re young and possibly single, and if you’re single ENJOY THAT FREEDOM OF OPPOURTUNITY. Stop wishing for a relationship, stop wishing for marriage, and asking all the “what if’s.”

Live in the present. Seize the freaking day because THE TIME IS NOW!

Let’s go.



It Is Well

The ocean, its all an unknown. We still don’t know ALL what’s in those great bodies of waters and we just may never know either. While being on an “island” for the past year, I only submerged twice in it. You’re thinking well that’s absurd. Yes, I do agree with you but only because I let my fear control me. I had such bad anxiety stepping into those waters it was overwhelming. Fact: they do have extremely poisonous jellyfish so knowing my odds; I wanted to avoid that thus not going in the unknown.

But really, it is so unknown; when you stare out past the horizon you see nothing and know that literally there is nothing but the other side of the world. It’s scary how MASSIVE this world is yet it’s beautiful from the East all the way to the West, all the way to the South and all the way to the North. There’s so much beauty that our brains cannot even comprehend it, we can’t even think that’s even possible. It’s already too much for me just thinking about it right now.

Being the unknown I immediately thought about Jesus. Jesus can be the unknown; He’s massive and beautiful. Trusting in Him, walking by Him, Living the life of a Christ follower, it’s all about the unknown but that’s why Jesus is always related to faith because faith is believing in something without tangible evidence thus trusting is the next main factor. Without faith or trust, there’s not Jesus in the equation. It may seem impossible to not trust or have faith because it’s the unknown however, here’s a fun fact, after I finally allowed myself to just trust Jesus with my anxiety and my fear I just threw my hands up and said DO IT ALREADY. I ran into those crystal clear warm pacific waters and it was the most alive feeling I have felt in a long time. It was scary, beautiful and nerve racking all at the same time BUT I am glad I finally just put my big girl swimmers on. Just like with Jesus it’s an all or nothing, you’re either with Him or against Him. You just need to trust Jesus for once, small or big it’s a step to a beautiful relationship that He’s been oh so patiently waiting for. You never know you if you choose Jesus you just may feel more alive than ever before. Just like the ocean we will never be able to completely understand Jesus on this side of Heaven, So let go my soul and trust in Him The waves in wind still know His name.



here’s the beautiful song I was inspired by to write this blog:

Expectations and Reality.

When I was younger, I was told to not have expectations for others because everyone will let you down at some point. Then there’s the Golden rule: treat others how you would like to be treated. I consciously started doing that more, yet I received nothing in return. When that was happening, I was so confused because I thought if I treated others well, I am suppose to get that in return. Not the case, it all comes down to where’s your heart at? My heart was at if I do this for you, you need to do that back. A. Selfish heart B. My expectations. Later on I was told I should figure out why I was doing what I was doing and if my heart was in the right place. Over the years my heart has been mending on the whole, have no expectations and do it with a giving heart not wanting heart.

This past year, I’ve done a lot of random acts of kindness for my family, friends, others and have received a few things in return without expectations. It was such a great feeling, of being known I am wanted, being thought of and cared for. However these past couple months I decided I love to make others happy and go out of my way to do nice things but I was like maybe I should leave the ball in there court now, just take a step back from making peoples day, be selfish for my own sake and see what happens. I have done that, I have not texted, laid low on the random acts and did not call. I tell you what; these past 5 months have been the most edifying, hurtful, tough, blessed, encouraging, and realizing months. The people who thought were my friends and did love me or cared for me, did not reach out to me. I am barely ever on my phone; I also deleted social media off my phone. Hardly any one texts me, no one really ever calls and people don’t ask anything about my life or what’s going on. When I see them, they ask why I haven’t talked to them and where I’ve been. Um, hello this works both ways and then they never know what to say or they are “busy”. Then I did come to conclusion, they really don’t care because if they did they would make time for your friendship and would keep in contact.

It’s so hurtful because I thought I could trust those people, if I stopped initiating everything that they’d be curious as too what is up. No, that is definitely not the case. I don’t really deserve or need people in my life that don’t want to genuinely ask me how my life is without me starting that conversation. It has shown me what type of a priority I am to those people and where I stand. It sucks and really hurts, however I am seeing the silver lining so clearly. I’ve been in constant prayer all year about having only edifying friendships, relationships and situations in my life. If that means cutting out literally everyone and some family members so be it. You and I do not need toxic friends in our lives; if they are not bringing positivity at all, why keep them around? Because you have known them the longest or you can use them from being not lonely? No, my logic is that if they don’t bring positivity in your life, boost you up, initiate some conversation or you cant trust, they shouldn’t be in your life. The only person I have a couple great friends, which I am so incredibly blessed and grateful for. I honestly have only 1 person I can rely on 100% with right now and that is my Lord and Savior, Jesus. I honestly never thought it’d come down to this and be completely ok with it. It might sound lame or dumb, its not! He is the ONLY person who will NEVER let you down, NEVER not care for you, Never not love you, NEVER not be there for you and NEVER just not be your friend. He is my everything; I’ve grown spiritually, mentally and emotionally so incredibly much these past couple of months because of the trials and tribulations I have been through. Without having others, using my phone or social media, its so nice to realize and see who is there for and you and who is not. It’s refreshing, comforting and life changing. As if it didn’t come at a right time either! God is amazing, His timing is PERFECT and He will never let you or me down that is His promise. (Psalm 55:22) Next time you feel so lonely or you need a change, do a friendventory or figure out what is negative in your life. You are the ONLY person that can change that area. Maybe talk to the Righteous Selfless, Merciful, and Graceful, PERFECT King because He has been and will always be waiting to hear from you (:


Big City Dreamer